Curious

Chapter 6: The Promise My First Wife Made

Evelyn stood in the doorway, gripping the frame so tightly that her knuckles turned white.

Vanessa was watching her.

I was watching both of them.

"What did Danielle tell you?"" I asked.

Evelyn swallowed.

"Marcus, not in front of the children.""

I looked toward Ava and Caleb.

"Go upstairs for a few minutes. Take Nia with you.""

Nia immediately shook her head.

"Please, Dad. I don't want to go with Mom.""

Vanessa's face hardened.

"Nobody said you had to.""

I crouched beside my daughter.

"You can go with Caleb and Ava. I'll be right here.""

She hesitated.

Then she followed them upstairs.

I waited until I heard a bedroom door close.

"Now tell me," I said.

Evelyn sat down.

Vanessa remained standing.

"Eight months before Danielle died," Evelyn began, "she came to see me.""

"Why?""

"She was worried about Nia.""

I felt my stomach tighten.

"About what?""

"She thought Nia was becoming afraid of certain things. She said the girl had started hiding food in her bedroom and asking whether she was allowed to eat.""

I stared at her.

"Danielle told you that?""

Evelyn nodded.

"She said she had noticed Nia doing it even when there was plenty of food in the kitchen.""

"Why didn't she tell me?""

"She tried.""

I frowned.

"What do you mean?""

Evelyn looked down.

"She called you several times. You were traveling. You were negotiating that hospital construction contract in Atlanta. She didn't want to interrupt you.""

I remembered that project.

It had been one of the biggest contracts my company had ever pursued.

I remembered taking calls from Danielle.

I remembered telling her I would call back.

I remembered forgetting.

Evelyn continued.

"Danielle was receiving treatment. She knew her time might be limited. She wanted to make sure Nia would have someone looking after her.""

I sat down opposite her.

"What did she ask you to do?""

"She asked me to promise that Nia would always have a place where she felt safe. She specifically asked me never to let anyone make the child feel like she was competing with another child for love.""

My eyes moved toward Vanessa.

She was looking at the floor.

"Did you promise?""

"Yes.""

"Then what happened?""

Evelyn wiped her cheek.

"After Danielle died, Vanessa became very involved in Nia's life. At first, I thought it was wonderful. She took care of her, bought her clothes, attended school meetings. I believed she was keeping Danielle's promise.""

I looked at her.

"And?""

Evelyn's voice became quieter.

"Over time, Vanessa started saying Nia was difficult. She said the child was too attached to Danielle's memory. She complained that you gave Nia special attention.""

Vanessa finally spoke.

"That's enough.""

I turned toward her.

"Let her finish.""

"She doesn't know what she's talking about.""

Evelyn shook her head.

"I know exactly what I'm talking about.""

Vanessa laughed bitterly.

"You've always preferred Danielle. Even after she died, you acted as though she was the only woman Marcus ever loved.""

"That's not true," Evelyn replied.

"You made me feel like I could never be Nia's mother.""

I stared at my wife.

"Nobody asked you to replace Danielle.""

Vanessa's eyes filled.

"I was trying to build a family.""

"By making Nia compete for dinner?""

She looked away.

Evelyn opened her handbag again.

This time, she removed a sealed envelope.

"Danielle gave me this shortly before she died.""

I recognized the handwriting immediately.

My name was written across the front.

Marcus.

My fingers trembled as I took it.

"Why didn't you give this to me?""

Evelyn lowered her head.

"I was afraid.""

"Of what?""

"Of what it might reveal.""

I opened the envelope carefully.

Inside was a handwritten letter.

Marcus,

If you're reading this, I'm probably no longer there to explain what I was trying to tell you.

I stopped.

The room seemed to disappear.

I continued.

I know you love Nia. I've never doubted that. But I need you to understand something about children who lose a parent.

They sometimes become very good at making themselves small. They learn not to ask for things because they are afraid of becoming a burden.

Please don't mistake her silence for happiness.

My eyes blurred.

I kept reading.

If Vanessa becomes part of her life, I hope she loves her. I hope Nia gets another person to call when she is frightened. But please remember that loving another child doesn't mean asking Nia to forget me.

I am not asking you to keep my photograph on every wall. I am asking you to let my daughter remember me without feeling guilty.

Then came the final paragraph.

There is one more thing I need you to know. When I was in the hospital, Nia told me something that frightened me. She said she sometimes hid food because she was afraid someone would take it away.

I stopped breathing.

I read the sentence again.

She said she didn't want to make anyone angry by asking for more.

The letter ended with:

Please listen when she speaks, Marcus. And if she stops speaking, please look closer.

I lowered the paper.

Vanessa was standing motionless.

Evelyn was crying.

I looked at my wife.

"Did you know about this letter?""

"No.""

"Did you know Danielle had noticed Nia hiding food?""

Vanessa didn't answer.

"Did you know Nia was doing it before you married me?""

She folded her arms.

"Children do strange things.""

"That isn't an answer.""

Vanessa's voice rose.

"Marcus, you're acting like I deliberately planned to hurt her!""

I stared at her.

"You had a list of rules forbidding her from eating without permission. You photographed her eating alone. You told her she had to earn food.""

"I was trying to control her behavior!""

"Food is not a privilege you get to remove.""

She shook her head.

"You don't understand what it is like living with a child who constantly makes you feel second place.""

I took a breath.

"Then you should have told me you were struggling. You should have asked for help. You should never have taken it out on her.""

Vanessa's expression changed.

"Are you saying I'm a bad mother?""

"I'm saying your actions have hurt my daughter.""

She stared at me.

For a moment, I thought she might cry.

Instead, she picked up her handbag.

"Fine. If that's what you believe, maybe I shouldn't be here.""

She walked toward the stairs.

I didn't follow her.

A few minutes later, Nia came downstairs.

She had heard enough to understand that something serious had happened.

"Dad?""

I folded Danielle's letter carefully.

"Come here, sweetheart.""

She approached.

I held out the envelope.

"This was from your mom.""

Nia stared at the handwriting.

Then she touched the paper with two fingers.

"That's her writing.""

"Yes.""

"Can I read it?""

"Of course.""

She sat beside me.

As she read, her lips began to tremble.

When she reached the last paragraph, she covered her mouth.

"She knew?""

I nodded.

"She knew you sometimes hid food?""

Nia started crying.

"I didn't want her to worry.""

I pulled her into my arms.

"Oh, sweetheart.""

"I thought I was bad for doing it.""

"No.""

"Mom said it was disgusting.""

I closed my eyes.

"You were a little girl trying to feel safe. There was nothing disgusting about that.""

She cried against my shoulder.

For several minutes, neither of us spoke.

Then she pulled away.

"Can I keep the letter?""

"Yes.""

She carefully folded it and placed it inside her notebook.

That evening, I called Denise Harper.

I told her about the letter, the notebook, the photographs, and the video.

She listened without interrupting.

When I finished, she said, "Marcus, I want you to bring Nia to my office tomorrow. We'll discuss the appropriate protective steps. I also recommend that you arrange a meeting with the children's school counselor.""

"Can Vanessa prevent me from doing that?""

"We'll address the legal questions properly. Don't take matters into your own hands.""

I agreed.

After the call, I went upstairs.

Vanessa was sitting on our bed.

Her suitcase was open.

"What are you doing?"" I asked.

"Packing.""

"Where are you going?""

"To my mother's.""

I leaned against the door.

"Are you leaving tonight?""

"Would you prefer I stay here and be humiliated?""

I didn't answer.

She folded a blouse.

Then she looked at me.

"Marcus, do you actually believe I don't love Nia?""

I thought about the photograph of her eating alone.

The sticky note.

The rules.

The video.

"I don't know what you feel," I said.

"But I know what you've done.""

Her eyes filled.

"You've destroyed eleven years of marriage over a few mistakes.""

I stared at her.

"A few mistakes?""

She looked away.

Then she said something that stopped me cold.

"You should ask your daughter why she started hiding food in the first place.""

I frowned.

"What?""

Vanessa zipped the suitcase.

"Danielle knew more than you think.""

May you like

She walked past me.

And as she descended the stairs, I realized there was still something about my daughter's childhood that nobody had told me.

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