Curious

Chapter 2: The Envelope My Mother Hid

The first night I spent away from home, I slept in my car.

Not because I had nowhere else to go, exactly, but because I couldn't bring myself to call anyone at midnight and explain that my stepmother had evicted me from my mother's bedroom while my father watched.

I parked behind a twenty-four-hour grocery store, locked the doors, and used my coat as a pillow.

At 2:17 a.m., my phone lit up.

For one hopeful second, I thought it was Dad.

It was Madison.

*MADISON:* Mom says you forgot to leave your old house key on the counter.

I stared at the message.

Then another appeared.

*MADISON:* Don't worry. We'll change the locks tomorrow anyway.

A photograph followed.

It showed my mother's bedroom, the door standing open. Madison had apparently crept inside to take a picture of herself in front of the mirror.

Behind her, I could see the corner of my mother's old dresser.

Someone had already placed a stack of trash bags on the floor.

I typed three different replies.

I deleted every one.

Finally, I turned off my phone and stared through the windshield at the pale glow of the parking lot lights.

At fifteen, I had believed my father would protect me.

At twenty-three, I understood that I had been protecting the memory of a father who no longer existed.

By six in the morning, I couldn't stand the cold anymore.

I drove to a small diner near the highway, ordered coffee and eggs, and used the free Wi-Fi to search for inexpensive apartments.

The cheapest studio I found was still more than I could comfortably afford. I worked as an administrative assistant at a dental office, earning enough to cover my car, insurance, and modest savings. I'd never needed to pay rent while living at home, although Patricia had recently started asking me for money toward groceries and utilities.

I had paid every month without complaint.

Apparently, my contributions had bought me no more security than a temporary guest pass.

At eight, I called my friend Hannah.

She answered on the fourth ring.

“Emily? Are you okay?””

I tried to speak normally.

“Can I stay with you for a couple of nights?””

There was a pause.

“Of course. What's happened?””

“It's a long story.””

“Then bring coffee and tell it to me in person.””

Hannah lived in a small apartment above a pharmacy, with mismatched furniture and a kitchen barely large enough for two people. It was the first place I had entered in years where nobody seemed concerned with whether everything looked expensive.

When she opened the door, she took one look at my suitcase and pulled me into a hug.

“Where's your father?””

“At home.””

“Does he know you're here?””

“He knows I left.””

Hannah stepped aside.

“And he hasn't called?””

I shook my head.

Her expression hardened.

“Unbelievable.””

I placed my suitcase beside her couch.

“Can I stay until I find somewhere?””

“You can stay as long as you need.””

“Hannah, I don't want to take advantage of you.””

“Emily, if you say one more thing about being a burden, I'm charging you for listening to me complain about my upstairs neighbor. Now sit down.””

For the first time since Sunday dinner, I laughed.

It came out shaky and unfamiliar, but it was real.

Hannah made toast while I explained what had happened. She didn't interrupt when I told her about my mother's room, the wedding photograph, or the rose bushes.

When I finished, she leaned against the counter.

“Your mother would be furious.””

The words landed harder than I expected.

I lowered my eyes.

“Sometimes I think she would be disappointed in me.””

“Why?””

“Because I stayed so long. I let Patricia change everything. I let Dad pretend none of it mattered.””

Hannah set down her coffee.

“Your mother died when you were fifteen. You were a child trying to survive the loss of a parent. You weren't responsible for making two grown adults behave like decent human beings.””

I swallowed.

“Then why does it feel like I abandoned her?””

“Because you've been confusing leaving a house with leaving your mother.””

I looked at her.

She softened her voice.

“Those aren't the same thing, Em.””

For a moment, the room blurred.

Then Hannah reached across the counter and squeezed my hand.

“Get some sleep. We'll figure out the rest later.””

I slept until noon.

When I woke, I remembered the envelope.

It had been in my mother's jewelry box, tucked beneath a velvet lining that I had never bothered to lift.

I had found it two years earlier while searching for a necklace to wear to a work event. The envelope was cream-colored, sealed with a strip of old-fashioned adhesive, and addressed in my mother's handwriting.

*For Emily, when she is ready to stand on her own.*

I had shown it to my father.

He had gone pale.

“Your mother was sentimental,” he said, taking the envelope from me.

“I'll keep it safe.””

He had placed it in his desk drawer.

I never saw it again.

Until the night I packed my suitcase.

While gathering the jewelry box, I had remembered that conversation. Something had told me to check beneath the velvet lining.

The envelope was there.

I hadn't opened it because I couldn't bear to read her handwriting while sitting in a house where nobody cared that I was leaving.

Now, sitting on Hannah's couch, I carefully removed it from the inner pocket of my suitcase.

My fingers trembled as I broke the seal.

Inside was a folded letter and a business card.

The card belonged to a woman named Margaret Collins, an attorney whose office was located downtown.

The letter began with the words that made my throat close.

My darling Emily,

If you're reading this, it means you've reached a point in your life when you need to make a difficult decision without me beside you.

I stopped.

I pressed the paper against my knee and breathed through the sudden ache in my chest.

Then I continued.

I wish I could be there to tell you that you are stronger than you believe. I wish I could watch you grow into the woman I know you'll become. But if life has taught me anything, sweetheart, it is that love should never require you to surrender your dignity just to keep the peace.

I wiped my eyes with the back of my hand.

There are things about this house that your father and I discussed before I became ill. I wanted to explain them to you myself, but I ran out of time.

My heart began to beat faster.

Please contact Margaret Collins when you are ready. Do not sign anything concerning the house without speaking to her first. And whatever happens, remember that the home we built was never meant to be a weapon used against you.

I read the last paragraph twice.

I love you beyond every room, every wall, and every address. You do not owe anyone your suffering in exchange for belonging.

At the bottom, she had written:

Forever your mother,

Laura.

I sat very still.

Hannah came out of her bedroom carrying a laundry basket.

“Emily? What's wrong?””

I handed her the letter.

She read it slowly, then looked at me.

“Did your father ever tell you what your mother meant?””

“No.””

“Did you ever speak to this attorney?””

“No.””

Hannah turned the business card over.

There was a handwritten telephone number on the back, along with a date.

November 14.

The day before my mother's final hospital admission.

I picked up my phone.

“I need to call her.””

Margaret Collins answered on the second ring.

“Collins and Reed. This is Margaret.””

My mouth went dry.

“Hello. My name is Emily Bennett. My mother was Laura Bennett.””

The silence on the other end was brief, but unmistakable.

“Emily,” she said gently.

“I've been wondering when you'd call.””

I gripped the phone.

“You knew my mother?””

“Very well.””

“Then can you tell me what she meant in her letter?””

Margaret exhaled.

“I can explain some things over the phone, but I'd prefer to meet you in person. Do you have the original letter with you?””

“Yes.””

“Good. Bring it, along with any documents you have concerning your mother's estate.””

“I don't have any documents.””

Another pause.

“Your father never gave you anything?””

“No.””

Her voice became more careful.

“Emily, I don't want to alarm you. But your mother made specific legal arrangements before she died, and I believe you should understand them before you make any further decisions about your former home.””

I stared at the wall.

“My former home?””

“That's what you called it, isn't it?””

I couldn't answer.

Margaret continued.

“Can you come to my office tomorrow morning?””

“Yes.””

“Then bring the letter, Emily. And please don't tell your father about our meeting until we've had a chance to review the documents.””

“Why?””

For the first time, her voice carried something sharper than concern.

“Because the last time I spoke to your father about your mother's wishes, he told me he would make sure you never had to worry about the house.””

I went cold.

“What did he mean by that?””

Margaret didn't answer immediately.

Then she said, “Tomorrow, I'll show you.””

When the call ended, Hannah was watching me.

“What did she say?””

I looked down at my mother's handwriting.

“She said Dad promised her something.””

“What?””

I folded the letter carefully.

“I don't know.””

But for the first time since leaving home, I had a reason to believe that my mother's story wasn't finished.

And when I arrived at Margaret Collins's office the next morning, the first document she placed on the table had my name printed across the top.

Beneath it was a date.

November 12, 2018.

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Two days before my mother died.

And beside my name was a signature that looked exactly like my father's.

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