Curious

Chapter 9: The Apology That Came Too Late

Tara didn't pack a bag that evening.

Instead, she spent nearly two hours moving between the bedroom and the kitchen, trying different ways to convince Dad that everything could return to normal.

First, she apologized.

Then she blamed Claire.

Then she cried.

Finally, she became angry again.

I stayed in my room, sitting on the edge of my bed while the house grew quiet around me.

The room still looked different after the search. One drawer wouldn't close properly because its contents had been shoved back too quickly. A corner of my mother's photograph had bent beneath a textbook. The wooden box she'd left me sat crooked on the desk.

I straightened the photograph and ran my thumb over the frame.

Mom had been smiling in it.

She was standing beside me at the beach, one arm around my shoulders, her hair blowing across her face. I was ten, sunburned, and holding a plastic bucket filled with seashells.

I'd forgotten how happy I looked.

A soft knock interrupted my thoughts.

"Ethan?""

Dad stood in the doorway.

"Can I come in?""

I nodded.

He stepped inside, looking around at the room Tara had torn apart.

"I'm going to fix that drawer tomorrow," he said.

"It's okay.""

"No. It's not.""

He picked up the bent photograph and carefully smoothed the corner.

"I should have stopped her before it got this far.""

I looked down at my hands.

"Why didn't you?""

He pulled a chair beside the desk.

"Because I thought keeping the peace was the same as keeping the family together.""

I said nothing.

He continued.

"After your mother died, I was terrified of losing another person I loved. When Tara and I got married, I wanted everything to work so badly that I ignored things I should have addressed.""

"Like what?""

"Like the way she spoke to you when I wasn't listening. The way she made you feel as though you had to earn your place here.""

My throat tightened.

"I tried telling you.""

"I know.""

"No, Dad. I told you.""

He lowered his head.

"You're right.""

For once, he didn't try to explain himself.

He didn't say that he had been busy or tired. He didn't ask me to consider Tara's feelings. He simply sat there and accepted what I'd said.

That meant more than I expected.

"I thought if I kept being good enough, she'd stop," I admitted.

Dad looked up.

"What do you mean?""

"I thought if I got good grades, helped around the house, and never argued, she'd eventually like having me here.""

He moved closer.

"Ethan, you should never have had to earn that.""

My eyes burned.

I looked away.

"I don't want to hate her.""

"You don't have to decide how you feel about her tonight.""

"But I don't know how to trust her.""

Dad nodded.

"Neither do I.""

We sat together in silence until he finally stood.

"Get some sleep. I'll be downstairs if you need anything.""

After he left, I heard him walk into the bedroom he shared with Tara.

Their voices rose almost immediately.

"I don't understand how you can do this to me," Tara said.

Dad answered quietly.

"I didn't create this situation.""

"You know how much pressure I've been under.""

"I know you were in debt. I didn't know you were taking money from our account or trying to force Ethan out.""

"I never intended to hurt him.""

"Then why did you accuse him?""

"I told you. I panicked.""

"You had a chance to apologize when you found the receipt.""

Tara's voice broke.

"I am sorry!""

"Are you sorry you accused him, or are you sorry we found out what you were doing?""

The silence that followed lasted so long that I thought their conversation had ended.

Then Tara said something that made me sit upright.

"I was trying to protect our marriage.""

Dad sounded stunned.

"By getting rid of my son?""

"By making you understand that I needed to matter, too!""

"You matter, Tara. But that doesn't mean Ethan matters less.""

"He's always going to come first.""

"No," Dad said.

"But he will never be treated as disposable just because you feel insecure.""

The door closed.

A few minutes later, I heard footsteps on the stairs.

Tara knocked on my door.

I didn't answer.

She knocked again.

"Ethan, please. I need to talk to you.""

I remained still.

"I know you're angry," she continued.

"And I know I handled things badly this morning.""

I almost laughed at the understatement.

"I just want five minutes.""

I opened the door but stayed behind it.

She stood in the hallway, her eyes red and her makeup smudged.

For the first time, she looked less like the woman who controlled every room she entered and more like someone who had lost control of her own life.

"Can I come in?"" she asked.

"No.""

She swallowed.

"All right.""

For a moment, neither of us spoke.

Then she said, "I owe you an apology.""

I waited.

"I shouldn't have accused you of taking the money. I shouldn't have searched your room like that. And I shouldn't have said those things about your mother.""

Those words hurt more than I expected.

Because she had known exactly how much they would hurt.

"Why did you do it?"" I asked.

She looked down.

"I was angry and scared.""

"Of what?""

"Of losing Daniel.""

I frowned.

"By making him choose between us?""

She closed her eyes.

"I know how it sounds.""

"No. I don't think you do.""

She looked at me.

"I wanted him to understand that our marriage was struggling. I felt as though every decision had to revolve around you.""

"I'm his son.""

"I know.""

"You married him knowing he had a son.""

"I know that, too.""

"Then why did you treat me like a problem he needed to solve?""

Tara's eyes filled again.

"I don't know.""

I studied her face.

Maybe she genuinely didn't know. Maybe she'd spent so long justifying her resentment that she'd stopped recognizing the cruelty behind it.

But her confusion didn't make the damage disappear.

"You told Dad to kick me out," I said.

"You didn't ask him to set boundaries. You didn't ask for counseling. You didn't even ask me what happened. You went straight to throwing me away.""

She shook her head.

"I didn't mean it that way.""

"That's how you said it.""

"I was upset.""

"So was I.""

She looked toward the floor.

For several seconds, she seemed unable to find another excuse.

Then she reached into her pocket and pulled out a folded piece of paper.

It was a handwritten apology.

She had apparently written it while Dad and I were upstairs.

"I know you may not forgive me," she said, holding it out.

"But I wanted you to know I'm sorry.""

I didn't take it.

"Did you write that because you're sorry, or because Dad might make you leave?""

Her hand trembled.

She lowered the paper.

"Both, perhaps.""

At least that answer was honest.

I stepped back.

"I can't forgive you tonight.""

She nodded slowly.

"I understand.""

"No, Tara. I don't think you do. You don't get to decide when this is over just because you've apologized.""

She looked at me, then folded the paper and slipped it back into her pocket.

"You're right.""

She turned to leave.

At the top of the stairs, she stopped.

"Your mother must have been a wonderful woman.""

I froze.

Tara looked back at me.

"I shouldn't have spoken about her the way I did.""

"No," I said.

"You shouldn't have.""

She nodded once and continued downstairs.

I closed the door and sat on the bed.

For the first time that day, I cried.

Not because Tara had apologized.

Not because Dad had finally stood up for me.

I cried because I had spent years trying to become someone who couldn't be rejected, and I was finally beginning to understand that no amount of perfection could make another person kind.

The next morning, I came downstairs to find Dad at the kitchen table with two cups of coffee.

Tara's purse was gone.

Her coat was gone.

And beside Dad's phone sat a sealed envelope addressed to me.

"What happened?"" I asked.

Dad looked up.

"Tara went to stay with her sister last night.""

I glanced at the envelope.

"What's that?""

"Something she left before she went.""

I opened it.

Inside was a check for fifty dollars and a short handwritten note.

*Ethan, this is the money I accused you of taking. I know you never took it. I am returning it because it was never yours to repay. I'm sorry.*

I read it twice.

Then I noticed another sheet of paper tucked behind the note.

It was a printed bank statement.

At the bottom, Tara had highlighted a transaction from the previous month.

The amount was $3,400.

The recipient was a name I recognized.

My mother's younger sister, Aunt Rachel.

I looked at Dad.

"Why was Tara sending money to Aunt Rachel?""

Dad's expression darkened.

"That's what I was hoping you could help me understand.""

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Because Aunt Rachel had died six months earlier.

And according to the bank statement, someone had continued transferring money into her account long after her funeral.

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