Curious

Chapter 3: The Money Was Never the Problem

When I arrived home, Chris's truck was parked in the driveway.

Mom's car was gone.

I found him in the garage, sitting on a low stool beside his workbench, holding a screwdriver he wasn't using.

He looked up when I entered.

“Hey, sweetheart.””

The word nearly broke me.

I'd spent the morning learning that he'd tried to convince my biological father to be part of my life, that he'd considered adopting me, and that he'd kept a letter for me in case I ever questioned his love.

Yet here he was, sitting alone in a garage, looking like someone who wasn't sure he still belonged in his own house.

“Can we talk?”” I asked.

He put the screwdriver down.

“Of course.””

I sat on the opposite stool.

For a moment, I couldn't find the words.

Then I asked the question that had followed me from the diner.

“Did you really want to adopt me?””

His expression changed.

He didn't deny it.

“Who told you?””

“Andre.””

Chris looked away.

“I see.””

“Why didn't you tell me?””

He rubbed his wedding ring.

“Because it wasn't my decision to make alone.””

“But you could have told me you wanted to.””

“Yes,” he admitted.

“I could have.””

“Were you afraid I'd say no?””

His eyes lifted to mine.

“No, Maya. I was afraid you'd feel pressured to say yes.””

I stared at him.

He continued, choosing each word carefully.

“I know you love Andre, even if he's not been around the way you needed. I never wanted you to feel like loving me meant betraying him. When I asked about adoption, I wanted to make sure everyone understood that I wasn't trying to erase your father.””

“But Mom said you weren't my father.””

The muscles in his jaw tightened.

“I heard her.””

“And you didn't say anything.””

“What did you want me to do?”” he asked softly.

“Stand in the kitchen and demand that she let me be your dad?””

I opened my mouth, then closed it.

“No,” he continued.

“I wanted to protect you from feeling like you had to choose.””

Tears filled my eyes.

“But I already feel like I have to choose.””

Chris went very still.

For the first time since the kitchen argument, he looked genuinely shaken.

“I'm sorry,” he whispered.

I wiped my face with my sleeve.

“Then tell me what happened last night. Andre said something about bank statements.””

Chris's expression hardened, not at me but at the subject.

He glanced toward the closed garage door.

“Your mother and I had a disagreement about some money. I wanted to discuss it privately with her, but it became an argument.””

“What money?””

He was quiet for a moment.

Then he stood and walked to a metal filing cabinet beside the workbench.

He unlocked the bottom drawer and removed a thick manila folder.

He returned to his stool and placed it between us.

“Your college savings.””

I frowned.

“I have college savings?””

“Of course you do.””

He said it as though the answer were obvious.

“Since you were nine, I've been putting money aside for your future. Your mother and I both contributed when we could. I also deposited some of my bonuses.””

He opened the folder.

Inside were account summaries, printed bank statements, and several pages covered in handwritten notes.

I saw years of deposits.

Small amounts at first.

Then larger ones.

Five hundred dollars. A thousand. Two thousand.

Every December, there was a deposit marked Maya—Christmas bonus.

My hands began to shake.

“You did all this?””

Chris nodded.

“I wanted you to have choices when you graduated. Community college, a university, an apartment if you needed one. Whatever you decided.””

I looked at the balances.

Then I noticed the withdrawal column.

Several large transfers had been circled in red pen.

“What are these?””

Chris didn't answer immediately.

“Last week, I checked the account because I was reviewing our household finances. There had been a series of withdrawals over the past several months.””

“How much?””

“Twenty-six thousand four hundred dollars.””

I stared at him.

“That's impossible.””

“I wish it were.””

“Where did it go?””

He turned a page toward me.

Some transfers went to an account I didn't recognize. Others were payments to a business with the initials D.J. Services.

“Your mother's brother, Derek, owns a small contracting company,” Chris explained.

“He was having financial difficulties. Your mother told me she was helping him with a temporary loan.””

I frowned.

“From my college money?””

“From money we had jointly set aside. She said she'd move the funds back after Derek repaid her.””

“Did he?””

“Not as far as I can tell.””

I looked at the statements again.

Then I saw a transfer for six thousand five hundred dollars.

The recipient was listed as Andre Johnson.

My face went cold.

“Dad—”

The word slipped out before I could stop it.

Chris looked at me.

Neither of us commented on it.

“Why did Mom give Andre money?””

“I don't know the full story,” Chris said.

“I noticed the transfer yesterday. When I asked your mother about it, she said she'd used some of the money to settle an old obligation.””

“What obligation?””

“She wouldn't explain.””

I stared at the figure.

Six thousand five hundred dollars.

My mother had told me that Andre couldn't afford to be involved in my life. She'd said he was unreliable and financially irresponsible.

Yet she had apparently sent him thousands of dollars from money intended for my education.

“Does Andre know where the money came from?””

“I don't know.””

I thought about the diner.

About his shame.

About the letter.

About the messages Mom had sent him.

“Did you ask him?””

“I tried to reach him last night. He didn't answer.””

I lifted my head.

“He gave me a letter this morning.””

Chris's face changed.

“He did?””

I nodded.

“He said you wrote it.””

Chris leaned back slowly.

For several seconds, he said nothing.

Then he rubbed both hands over his face.

“I wondered whether he'd ever give it to you.””

I pulled the envelope from my bag and placed it on the workbench.

Chris stared at it.

“I haven't opened it,” I told him.

“It's addressed to me.””

He looked at me with something that seemed almost like relief.

“Then it's yours.””

I broke the seal.

Inside was a letter written in Chris's handwriting, dated five years earlier.

The paper was yellowed at the edges.

Dear Maya,

One day, I hope you'll understand that being your stepfather has never felt like a smaller version of being your father. I don't know if you'll ever want me to adopt you, and I won't ask you to make that decision just to make me happy.

But I want you to know that you have never needed to earn your place in my heart.

If you choose Andre, I'll respect that. If you choose to have two dads, I'll be grateful. If you decide that family is more complicated than those labels, I'll respect that too.

All I ask is that you never mistake my last name for the limits of my love.

Love, Chris.

I couldn't see the final lines through my tears.

I folded the letter carefully.

Then I looked at him.

“You wrote this five years ago?””

“Yes.””

“Why didn't you give it to me?””

He took a breath.

“I planned to. Your mother said she wanted to discuss adoption with you herself first. I agreed to give her time.””

“How much time?””

His face darkened.

“Apparently, five years.””

A noise sounded in the hallway.

We both turned.

Mom stood in the doorway, holding her purse.

Her gaze moved from Chris to the open folder on the workbench.

Then it settled on the letter in my hand.

Her face drained of color.

“Where did you get that?””

I stood.

“Does it matter?””

She stepped forward.

“Maya, give me the letter.””

“No.””

Her eyes widened.

“Excuse me?””

“You heard me.””

She looked at Chris.

“You had no right to show her those documents.””

“I didn't,” he replied.

“She asked me a question, and I answered it.””

“You've been turning her against me.””

Chris's voice remained calm.

“Natasha, she read the letter you never told her existed.””

Mom reached toward me.

I stepped back.

For a moment, I saw something in her eyes that I couldn't identify. Fear, perhaps. Or anger at having lost control of a story she'd been telling for years.

“You don't understand what this means,” she said.

“Then explain it.””

She swallowed.

“You're seventeen. You don't understand what happens when adults make decisions that affect an entire family.””

“I understand that twenty-six thousand dollars disappeared from my college savings.””

Her mouth opened.

No sound came out.

“And I understand,” I continued, “that the man you keep telling me isn't my father saved money for my future and wrote me a letter telling me I didn't have to choose between him and Andre.””

Chris quietly closed the folder.

Mom stared at me.

Then she said something that made my skin turn cold.

“You were never supposed to see that letter.””

I looked at her.

“Why?””

She glanced at Chris.

He stood up.

“Answer her, Natasha.””

May you like

My mother gripped the strap of her purse.

Finally, she whispered, “Because I knew you'd choose him.””

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